Long Weekend

 

It's only taken me about an hour and a half (with distractions) but I am finally caught up on blogger! ::cue happy dance::

    Whenever several months go by without writing, I always feel like it has been awhile but never as much time as has actually passed. The last time I wrote was in November and we're just about into June. It's crazy. 

    I'm not sure if I'm going to write a specific blog or just be all over the place. I'm kinda leaning towards being all over the place but that's kinda my style. Maybe I can recap some of the big changes that have happened since the last post? I do want to make a post and specifically focus on manifesting for the next 5-6 months. Tim and I are on the verge of huge change and I have a lot of positive feelings about it.

1. I've started formal therapy

I've wanted to try therapy again for quite awhile and I've very happy with my current therapist. It was a culmination of many things but mostly a desire to understand myself better and work on myself. I want to be a better person, wife and eventually, a mother. There is something wonderful about having someone listen to your thoughts without biased judgement or your history. You can just share without expectation or guilt. 

2. My sister is pregnant and a married lady! (Yes, in that order. How am I going to catch up?)

I would be lying if I said it hasn't been like a roller coaster in regards to this but I couldn't be happier for them both! I can't wait to be an auntie because I need something to dress up other than the dog....

         3. A shit ton (to be scientifically accurate) of people at my office have left so we are virtually always short staffed.

    

This one has give me mixed feelings but mostly good. I have a lot more responsibility on me but it seems to be working out in my favor. I feel more fulfilled at work then I have in awhile. The lack of help has pushed me to care a bit more, work smarter and overall be more involved. I feel like I have more of a hands on role and more needed by my company. It also has me contemplating a management position in the future. I feel genuinely fulfilled at work, right now (and that is the first time in a long time) I also have found that I like having as much control as I do and not needing to compete with someone else's organization style. I can organize and run the scribing part, virtually how I want to. Oh yeah, and I am kinda making bank right now. (So, that helps)

            3. We're officially moving to Ohio sometime at the end of the year 

Mixed feelings again, of course but mostly positive. I'm happy to start a new chapter, hopefully have a better environment for Tim's mental health and begin trying for kids. I cannot wait to have a beautiful Fall up there (lately I have been thinking a lot about Halloween) My dad and stepmom see it in a painful way but I really feel like I can make things work (in terms of seeing them a fair amount as well as my sister) 

Those are some of the biggest changes lately. To fly back here to the very present moment, I am sitting here, putting off making dinner by typing this blog up. Tim is playing Mass Effect, he got kinda defensive when I asked him the title of it just now. "You writing about me?" (don't worry I'm not psychoanalyzing you, Tim, that would take way too long) We had a good, long weekend together that was lazy but also very intimate. On Friday I surprised him with some fairly lights for over our bed, champagne, ceviche and flowers. It was actually a very nice evening. It was nice just spending time together and enjoying each other's company.

I did unfortunately get an awful hordeolum (aka, a stye) that has finally mostly resolved after having me miserable for most of the weekend. I tried to stay upbeat and Tim really didn't seem to think I looked less pretty or desirable. Which, at first made me annoyed like, "hey buddy, I'm kinda miserable here," but morphed into, "he loves me regardless if I look like Igor." He was respectful when I really felt bad but never totally turned off. 

Tomorrow we are back to reality. This week is going to be a short week and tomorrow should be pretty easy. For now, I am going to start dinner and maybe do a small blog after about future manifestations. 

Till next time,

SB