I'm Dreaming of....

 Good Evening,

How are you today? Did you have a good week? I've had a very good past few weeks-including a trip up to Ohio that yielded some big news. The photo above is a picture from when we were driving through West Virginia. The picture does not do it justice, but it is an amazing view, particularly when it's cold and their is mist at the top of the mountains like in this photo.

I had a ton of challenges against my sobriety as well- Tim's mom offering a mimosa and Tim's stepmom buying a specialty Moscato for us to try. I did, somehow, manage to control myself.

While we were up there, Tim finally had the long awaiting discussion about the future of the company. It appears that Jim has been looking for a hangar and space up in Ohio already but his time frame for moving the company was not exactly what Tim and I want. As they continued talking and Tim divulged more of his thoughts- our thoughts (we want to start a family soon, we want to move by June, the market is hot it is time to sell now, the guys Tim works with are more than willing to relocate, etc.) Jim seemed to understand and accept a June time frame. 

I was not present for the conversation- I was actually walking mindlessly through one of the most boring malls I have ever been in, so they could talk privately. Hey, at least I got my steps in! I was....cautiously optimistic when Tim emerged from the conversation and told me about what they had discussed. I have known Tim and by association, Jim for 5 years now. I have seen the many ups and downs that Tim has endured, having a boss like Jim and so my first reaction was predestined.

However, since I have had time to digest everything and talk more with Tim, I am feeling more certain. I am mostly certain that whatever needs to happen, will happen and it will be in the best way possible. I do strongly believe that. I felt the same way about this past election. I am overwhelmingly happy that we are having a transition of power but if that had not been the case, I was really just praying that many turbulent things going on right now would subside. 

With all of that being said, does not that mean that I am going to be up and moving tomorrow? No notice from work? Gone with the wind? Nope. There are a lot of things that have to be figured out before we start getting serious about moving. I won't begin really searching for a home to rent in Ohio or a new job until hangar space and a manufacturing space is secured. That is when we will know things are getting serious. This week a few things have happened that lead me to believe that these things will align a lot quicker than what I expected (which is a good feeling)

On some other personal notes, I have been sober for 20 days and through my relatively good eating, I have lost 10 pounds. Woohoo! I have not been perfect but I have been eating a lot more mindfully. Today was hard though. Today I was just very hungry and wanted to eat everything but I overall stayed pretty good. I am 100%  positive, at this point, that I will never have a drink again (set aside from maybe that champagne toast?) I somehow can't let that one go but I am sure within time I will be uninterested in that even. Not drinking, I have noticed how much more Tim drinks and I can't help but feel bad for him because I know how many positives are happening for me because I quit and I was drinking less than him. It's not coming from a judgemental place, more like an empathetic place. I can see how anxious and uptight he gets. I know the alcohol does not help that. I already gently broached the subject before and he got a bit defensive and said that he had cut back. He was mostly going to drink beer but that has not been true this week. 

I'm not going to push him. When he is ready, he is ready. I'll be here for him. 

So, to end the rambling I thought I might script a bit of what I hope for the next 6-8 months. I am already dreaming of a beautiful Christmas vacation with Tim and beautiful, fluffy white snow. 

This winter vacation is our "last" vacation to Ohio. The weather is clear, sunny and we have a generous amount of snow- the beautiful, fluffy, Hallmark kind of snow. We have plenty of time to spend with all of the family and everyone is full of positive vibrations. This is the happiest Christmas in Ohio we have had yet. There is a lot of talk about us permanently moving to Ohio and Jim got the hangar space in Portage secured. Heck- he bought most of it! They were also able to find the perfect manufacturing space. It's all within a short distance from Tim's immediate family and a perfect area for me to find work with a corneal specialist. Tim and I are able to spend some alone time together at the end of the vacation in a beautiful location. New Years is wonderful and feels serendipitous. So many beautiful, wonderful memories being made. 

Our house sold easily and the transition to Ohio has been so smooth! I found a perfect job working for a corneal specialist as a scribe and tech support. I have amazing benefits, a flexible schedule and great pay! Tim is thriving at work. The Litestar has been more successful than imagined. The airplane portion is booming too as people are being drawn in to look at them after the Litestar. Before we are even in Ohio, Tim's career is going great. He is happier and more at peace. We have both been focusing on our health and all of our credit cards paid off. We made more money than we could have expected on the house and we are moving to Ohio in great shape!

The home we secured in Ohio to rent is perfect. Plenty of space, safe, in a beautiful area and a great price. We are so lucky! Right timing. Tim and I are able to take some time to settle in to our new home and relax before starting work. We are so blessed and so lucky. Thank you universe!

So, before any of that I have some really good things I am looking forward to as well. Like Thanksgiving with my sister, Derek, Caleb and Kat. I seriously can't wait. I can't wait to get the house smelling nice and decorating for Christmas. It is going to be a really nice visit.

I am overall, feeling very good in my skin and happy. I am very optimistic. I feel good emotional and physically. Quitting alcohol has also seemed to help my anxiety level too. 

To close for tonight, I wanted to leave you with this fun video!

I casually clicked on this video, picked a pile I resonated with and the message was very accurate. I really like these readings on youtube and across the board they have been pretty accurate. Tell me if it was accurate for you!

Lots and lots of love, 

S.B.